almost wanted to...... nope! didn't do it.

          ok so another comment about the wind, and i wonder how many times my tittle will say that, or i will think i so want to use that tittle again... yeah i came close to putting my foot down on a hill.... i went 15.4 today.. i increced my aveage speed from 10mph to 10.4mph... i really thought i had done worse by the time i got back.. the north wind had really whooped me over  when i was coming back into town..
          +++Sand-Drops++++  ha ha what is that... huge piles of sand left by sand trucks that have pulled over on the side of the road that are halling sand for the Fracturing process going on down here in south Texas... i almost plowed right into one this morning...  they are about 1.5 tall and maybe 2 foot wide.. first when i came on the first one i thought it was a piece of plastic as i ziped by.. but as i was going up hill i spoted some more of them.. and thought, "thank you Gdod for not allowing me to just hit that one ealier" i would of been in the ditch for sure had i hit one of those head on....    i am really surprised at how safe all the people are on the road.. i have been greatful.. the traffic passing me (even though i am riding shoulder)  have been moving into a far right lane away from the shoulder when passing me.. 
         during my prayer time in the midst of things this morning i didn't connect as i did in the past, matter of fact i had a real hard time trying to focus on God and praying.. i really was fighting my sinful, evil, and vile heart this morning... how in the world does God forgive us when are hearts ares so evil in actions, and in ways.  it was such a hard fight to get to a point of prayer this morning... and when i did it mostly consistently coming to God telling him of how dark my heart is, and asking Him, "how lord do i move this more out of my heart, and move more of you in..."   yes i know it's His Word in our lives that helps us to combat these times, thoughts, and desires in our life.  i am just allowing you to see, i am a man just like you, i struggle, and often i too encouter the same struggles, thoughts, & actions i have to battle against like you... i was able to stave alot of them off today, but some still creep through..  but don't quit, don't give up, keep working on what you have, and continute to move forward the best that you can...      it never hurts to take time after you spent some time in prayer to call a friend and ask them to pray with you during times like this.. that's why we are the body of Christ, that's why we are hear to help each other during the dark times..
              have a great night... and thanks to my "foxy wife" for helping me get up out of Bed to start my day this morning, and she had gently reminded me, "the alarm is going off, aren't you going to work out"  thanks for not letting me quit before i even got started today.. i love you Faith & you are the best. thank you..
       Scotty

Rhythm, Rain, crazy train, and a blow out

Crazzy Trains this morning, I get back to that in a minute...
I felt great today.. I got more in a rhythm today I think.. 2nd day of my 14 mile route and at the half way point I wanted to go more.. I had to hold myself back... Although I Pushed a .8 out of it...(14.8) and I ha to remember I don't want to quit, I want to be consistent.. Even with two traffic stops for crossing roads or trafficked lights and taking off my glasses for the pouring rain this morning,, I still shaved 1 mints off the rout.. Pulled a 6 minute mile average speed 10mph.. I was excited to go further and shave a minute off my time..
Conditions This was the whole reason I moved to north and south.. The wind was strong this morning..: the Rain was coming Down, and it was awsome...
train man as I come in close to the last mile there is a train crossing.. Well the trains decided to through a Kim in my plan and I had to hit the river park area.. Roads at more narrow and this broke my Rhythm a litte which was the
Most annoying thing.. Oils field traffic is thick down here for sure..
blow out on my shoes of all places.. It's my oldes pair of shoes I had I my arsenal.. A good friend of mine gave them too me.. It was funny and it was in my after walk ride(which will turn into a run later I my training) I was walking and though I had stepped on a big drink bottle, it was kind of dark, could not Belive I missed it.. But ok... Ha ha come back around for my second lap and what did I see... The bottom of my shoe.... Ha ha ha ha had those shoes since 2004... Thanks Scott they were a great lasting gift...
last but not least, the spiritual aspect on the last of my second lap this morning I felt like the Holy Spirit really allowed me to focus on God and express gratitude towards him and praise him in a way I have not gotten to in a while.. It was verry refreshing and memorable time.
Don't quit, don't give up.. Keep moving forward.. It's about consistantcy in what you are doing, don't worry the more you practice the better you will get, and then the more you will be Able to do...
Merry Christmas....

4th week kick off 14.1miles

Man   do i feel like a million dollars... grrrr,
         it was hard, it took me longer then i wanted to, i wanted to almost get off the bike once, and i thought, "you can't get off your bike, you some kind of sissy" ha ha... i beat myself verbally back into it, sang some Kids hymns & Christmas songs "Jesus is the Rock of My salvation, His banner over me is love"   & pushed.... grrrr it was a push for me too,  and i ended up doing 14.1 instead of 12 for what i planned... i wanted to make sure i got 12 in didn't want to risk it, so i pushed passed another hill just to make sure...
         can't wait to see what tomorrow holds.. it's a great day.. now how home to the family after some work... and let my body get some rest and get ready to do at least the 14.1 again... i am excited...
          don't give up, don't quit... 
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have a great night everyone.... Merrrrrrry Chrissssttttmasssssss!
Scotty

Day of rest, Getting ready for 4th week

   I have been consistantly moving forward.. this next week i am going for 12 miles a day on the bike. moving my work out to 1 hr to 1:15-1:30 long  start getting up now at 5:15am or 5:30 am now...   looking forward to seeing how the new route will be i will be moving from going east & west to going to North and South.. this will definatly more difficult this time of Year, as well as i know that i am increasing elvation of my ride next week as well.
            it's so weird pushing my self in this way, thinking of next week goals, and the mental battle begains now... "dude do you really want to do this"  i still have some good well meaning freind telling me, " Scotty you are crazy and you will never pull this off, and that you will never going to achive this goal..."
         i have no idea how far i will get, but i know i will not give up, i am moving forward, i don't know if i will achive this in a year, or 5 years, but i am moving forward to what God has instore for me as i start this adventrue, prayerfully He will allow me to continue, to push forward and make a differance in my life, the life of my family, my close friends, and my church Family...
         to all of you have set a goal, and there have been people been telling you to, "quit, give up, your never gonna make it."  let my tell you this....
                               "Never Give up, you can do it, continue to pray about the goal you set before you, and Don't give up, Never, never, Never, Never give up on the things that God prayerfully have set on your heart, there is a reason He gave you the Goal to being with, you can do it, He will not give you More then what you can bear, find the silver or gold lining in the moments along the way, because there are plenty of Dark days to come...  dig Deep, pray hard, and keep moving forward.... There is a great Strength that indwells in you through the Holy Spirit.. Father i would like to pray for the person who is reading this who might feel like giving up, who doesn't want to continue on, who feel the weight of things against them... help them to hear your voice, help them to since your spirit and guide them, speak to them, inspire them and please Father help them to reach out and acomplish the task you set before them... Father please do these things for them in the name of your son Jesus... Amen...."
            have a great day of Rest... Merry Chirstmas... and don't give up... you can do this
Thankfully i have not give up yet... i fell a million times better, and like the movie Meet the Robins "Keep Moving Forward"

sick, sick, sick, sick....

still on the journey... as i have a friend who likes to ride me every other day... he reminded me today.. dude you have 49 weeks left, you never going to make it...
my answer to him was, i am consistent, and i will not give up... yeah he things this is a joke,,, and he gets a laugh out of it quit a bit...
ok so now to the serious stuff... i had sinus infection that put me down for two day.. i was drained, headache, no energy... but thankfully God was kind and allowed me to over come it.. i started back today.. the last mile was Grrrrrrreeaaaattttttt! loved it...
i feel so much better, so i don't care where you at, what you are doing... if you start, be consistent, even if it's slow, keep going and build... it will last longer, you will feel better, and you will desire the feeling better will help you over come the tough times.
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sorry i have not blog consistently... i will try to do better.

3rd week starts

Bring it on baby!!!!!!!

Ok I am going to a new third route.. Going from 7.9 to a full 10 miles a day this next week.. So it's off to Bed and I will pick up and blog tomorrow some centime much more.. Have a great nights sleep and welcome to a new week!!!! Whooooo ;)

faster

so this morning... yeah i did not want to get past the .8 mark.. legs hurt some, i quit using my ear phones... ohh that is so hard...

my body is starting to get used to shifting the bike. i think it has 22 gears, i am using 3 of them.. ha ha...

i did better and ended up pushing my self more... i increased my speed i got the 6.3 miles on the bike & the .8 on the speed walk, but I had made up time on my bike this time. so i got to tack on another .8 on the speed walk so i got to bump from 7.1 yesterday to 7.9 today.. so we will see what happens tomorrow..

don't quit, don't give up... doubt creeps in and fight it back.. quitting was running through my mind 3/4 of the way through this morning... then when i was the last 1/4 i knew i have to finish and maybe i can do more... then when i got into the walk, i was like, "i can do more i am not going to stop, i am going to do another .8... i can do it... i can do it..." then before i was done the .8 turned into 1.6..

May our God help you turn you last 1/4 into more then you expected..

tomorrow.... 20 min from now..... it will be 30 degrees when i get up to bike and walk... ha ha i would pick the worst time of the year to start a goal... anyone else feel the same way... don't quit don't give up.... we can do it...

We can do all things through Christ who straightens us!!!

2nd week

My Bike

Plan....... Plan...... Plan..... first off this is probably not the way to get ready for an iron man... ha ha ha.. and know that i am not doing this to seek our 1st place. This is a personal challenge to myself first of all, and then secondly beat a friend of man for bragging rights... yep that is you Sam!

where to begin, so my wife went out of town for a week and i have 4 young boys (can't leave alone) did not think of that one.. needed a indoor work out routine in place. tyboe, p90x, push up and setup's... what ever works right.. just know those days are coming plan for it.. i didn't... opps!

So Sunday is my bump up day. I went from ridding 2.3 miles and speed walking .8 miles to riding 6.3 miles & speed walking .8 miles. (again i am 287 6'2" Remember i am Gradually building at this point it might not be the best thing, but part of my goal is consistency & not to quit, even if it pushes my timeline back. i do not intend to give up!) one of the main Reason for this.. Dogs... ha ha.. yeah real logical push.. i would double my work out with a larger loop & a different area because of dogs! some recent new people moved into our neighborhood and have 3 huge dogs. i really thought they were going to clear the fence when they hit it.... and they would have had fresh leg for breakfast... i don't have a concealed license or a hand gun to shoot them if they jump the fence, or i don't want to try to out run them when i am first starting off... so i change my route... and bumped it up... logical right??? ha ha ha.. Glad i did it.. plus who wants to wake up all the neighbors at 5:30am in the morning every morning because of some pesky dogs... not me..

Did great this past Sunday... today whole new story... i am simple minded.... Just keep peddling, just keep peddling, don't stop peddling.. always peddle even if you are going down hill.... peddle! yeah forgot to plug in my phone to charge so no head phones today... talk about a night & day difference. today was somewhat difficult.. the cold weather.... nope, the rain... nope, no music...my dependance almost crushed me today... ***WARNING***
Then I got to thinking about it, make sense why the war boats had drums & why the soldiers had a cadence to march too.... Music empowers the sole, sets a pace.. I finished on Sunday in about 35 minutes, today my finish time was 50min... (some of that is my body fighting back now to with not liking to be pushed more then what i did last week!) Now i see why the iron-man rules do not allow listing devices, i had even thought of putting some kind of small bell on my shoe to help me keep a cadence while i ride & run.. i bet that is against the iron man rules as well.
So yeah i wanted to quit after .8 and just ride around the block a couple of times and call it a day... Thank you Jesus for a brief thought of No... you have to push your self Now, this is where you cross the finish line, or you go home because your a quitter.... I do not want to quit... so i pressed on and thankful that i completed it... i have a feeling i am going to have that battle a-lot for days, weeks, & months to come....
A friend of mine shared a great quote today.. "Why should you continue going after your dreams? Because seeing the look on the faces of the people who said you couldn't... will be priceless." then of course we have some banter that will take place back in forth about who is going to cross the finish line before the other... ha ha...
also i realize that my diet is going to have to change.. i have cut out cokes, but i have this sinking feeling that evil green stuff that i despise so much will have to be a large part of my diet... ha ha.... yeah i know that is coming... I have been so starving through out the day now that i have started to pick things up.....
The Battle..... I will not lie, last week was a bad week... i had one day of anger that was very difficult for me to control... (in part, others should not do this, i take responsibility for my own actions here and no one elses, i have quit taking my Adderral as of a month now i have been off. This is just something personal that i deal with on & off but none the less has become apart of this journey that i am on right now. not right, not wrong, Just different.) I really do not think it has anything to do with that, but i really think it has to do with the spiritual battle that i am up against on a daily basis as I pray along side of our people, and fight my own personal demons that seek to torment me through out the my heart and life. When you make a stand, physically & spiritually get ready all hell is going to break loose against you.
So this is my warning to you right now, if you are setting goals spiritually, if you are setting Goes physically, and you are striving to draw closer to our God.. well, let just say Satan & the other fallen angles just are not going to roll over and play dead for you!!! they hate you, they Hate the God who created you, they hate your marriage, they hate what it stands for, they hate the Word of God, they Hate those who are willing to speak it, they hate those who use it, They Hate your Goals, They have your Spouse, They hate your Kids, they hate your Dog, they Hate your Car.... They Hate you, can't stand you, they think you stink, you smell, you..... don't believe me, take a moment and read "23 Minutes in Hell" and then read the scripture that he give in the back to validate his experience... Dude it is on like Donkey Kong...

• so let me wrap this up with good stuff... Don't quit
• consider the no music factor...... ugggg
• Plan for you spouse being out of town
• push for more.... you can do it...
• don't give up i feel like the million dollar man and i am only doing a little everyday.. be consistent!!!! you can do this!!!
• Sam, what kind of Gatorade you want me to bring you after you cross after me? ha ha thank you... you are truly a blessing as a friend.
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• Me after the morning Ride... Grizzly man... Grizzly.... ha ha
  
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332 days till Ironman

Day 1. I am 38 years old..My official home scale starting weight is 287 I did 2.4 miles on my bike at lunch took 15 min. walked another 30 minutes briskly through out the rest of the day. Had to teach tonight, so i will have to make up more of the time this week. Thank you Amber A. for coaching me about time management and help me set goals.. I will post Amber's info latter this week for anyone looking for a trainer.. thankfully she is a good friend and has been willing to guide me to get a good foundation and a plan in place prayerfully we will be finished with that by this week to lay it out.

Day 2. I got up latter then i wanted to, but at 6:45 i still kicked in to do this.. My 2nd oldest son Robert was up already Cheering me on... Go dad you can do it... So i did a little bit more today... i did the 2.4 miles on the bike then I did .8 at a fast walk.... yeah i know run... ha ha.. i started with Jogging but lets just say i felt that maybe my knee caps were going to drop down to my feet... yeah i think i need to do some more tightening of the old muscle mass to keep things where there suppose to be.. with that being said.. the brisk walk is great. my wife is out of town this week so prayerfully the boys will get there work done and we can had down to the city soccer filed and have some fun (cross training) ahh yeahhhh.. it's easier to run if i have a ball to chase. ha ha...

Ok part of my starting this is to be consistent & not give up. The theory I am going on is to slowly build at first instead of rapid... because i do not want to quit. I could go all out, but i think i would be burned out by day 2 and then i would have to recover from doing all that... i think it's a common mistake we all make sometimes.. so my approach to pain is to over come it in small quantities at a time. Consistent gradual pain i can learn to ignore or work past, but sever on set of crippling pain... well that says it all... i don't want to quit I don't think i can say that enough. From what i read it really gets into the mental battle when it gets into the pain. next aspect which is the most important part of my workout with this morning for me was Repentance... i was not able to get into that zone yesterday. Music... ***** ((((Just a by word... Music helps me to move into this from quickly.... today's song of choice... "Look Yourself" from the group Apologetix & the Cd is Apologetix Classics....)))) as country as I am, as a pastor at a Cowboy Church... i love rap maybe it was the arra that i grew up in i don't know.. but it moves me....****** i don't know what it has to do with me or ADD.. but nothing like a great beat to help me focus in... move past the cares of this world.. but it has to be beats with words that really make me focus on what is the most important... and that is the spiritual aspect...

               God started ripping that wide open today, and I promise you Satan was at work to keep me from getting on that bike this morning..... as I started in i just felt terrible for allowing my self to get to a complacent part of my life physically, spiritually, & emotionally God Forgive me for waiting this long to be moved by your spirit, for not setting a goal, for being apathetic to my life, spiritually, physically, for waiting for so long to push my self, to train, and move past being a light weight to moving to being a heavy weight spiritually and physically... it's hard to hold weeping in as you ride or run..
          i don't what it takes for you my friends but what it ever takes move into weeping over the sin that we struggle with.. and as i moved into weeping and asking for forgiveness i moved into an anger.. not a uncontrollable anger but and empowering anger int he midst of prayer. My mind move past my sin and into praying for my friends and recently a family as come to me asking to pray for there house because they felt a spirit was in the house there haunting them.. I went into prayer over that family and that house, and then my mind moved to another aspects of the lives of those who are around me.. I want to encourage all of you who do no know, or who have not experienced prayer in the midst of working out.. i find it even more exhilarating that i can comprehend or explain.. i know it's not the same for everyone, but for me it's moving.

     Two things I felt was affirmation on this journey. one is that i have started. one of our member brought me an article yesterday about a evangelist who has been battling cancer and started running marathons and his journey in doing that. and in this next year we have been praying that maybe God would open a door for one of as a staff to go to India and see the work that we have been supporting as a church, and possible better understand it. low in behold this evangelist on his front page of the his newsletter had just gotten back from India. Since then a friend of my from college that is from India has been in touch with me over the past couple of months. So who know what God might would have in store...

         This is hard for me, because i have just always felt that i just want what God wants me to do, and i have tried to live a life with no dreams, no ambition then to only sever our God with where He would send me, or with what He would want me to do. i don't want my agenda to get in the way with what He desires for my life. so I prayerfully stumble into the time in my life.. invigorated by the challenge, even though it is personal, but it seams that spiritually it has helped me to feel even more alive... maybe it's because i am headed in a direction. I prayerfully seek a balance through this.. I look forward tomorrows prayer time (yes i pray through out the day for people who request, who come into the office, but that is my start of the day prayer time)... Today I could not help but imagine after my time of repentance that had huge angle wings driving me forward.... I know now you get to hear the weird side of Scotty... ha ha but I love all of you... i look forward to living this life to the fullest beside all of you... May we no longer settle for complacency, me wall all work better together for our God, and may our choices impact the world, and leave a foot print for those behind to follow, and my that foot print scream out loud in compassion and love..... "Jesus....... Lovessssssssssss........ youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu" I will live... i will not quit.... I pray your journey has, is, and will be alive and compelling..

From Fat-Man to Ironman!

Today I am 6'2" and I weight 287lbs. Thanks to one of my Best friends (Sam), a little old school rivalry between the two of us, his sister Hannah and her running the Cozumel ironman this weekend..... we have taken off the gloves and thrown down to run a ironman in a year, and if God willing the Cozumel Ironman this time next year. this is where i plan on sharing how God uses this to impact me with this burning desire to do this, and my physical desire to rebel against this. I have some Good friends that will encourage me along the way i am sure, but most of all i have a Great wife who believes in me. I know that an ironman can be consuming, but i am going to strive to balance my work, family life, and preparation for this the best i can while including my family into it as well... I am hyper and a ball of energy and really looking forward to this.. Scotty

soooo

Man energy comes and goes through out the days. My focus as of lately, and probably the next bible study/sermon i will try to write will be on diligence. I really think that to many leaders/pastors focus on the effect of diligence (prosperity) and neglect the key behind diligence (consistent work ethic). To many people would rather pray for the prayer of instant gratification (oooopss) I mean instant blessings. I mean then you don't have to do the work, you got God to do his part and your part. I perceive the bible speaks to us being diligent with what we have been given up to the point God can do the things that only God can do in our lives. now yes there are something that diligence just will not pay off for and only God can step through and provide especially the spiritual sides of things like healings, loneliness, demon possession, the traps of sin we have fallen into. Yes only God's grace can truly intervene when it comes to that. An to an extent maybe some of what we try to strive to achieve spiritually can help to impact those out comes, & even greatly sometimes.

Now when it comes to the physical world of monetarily items, things we want, grades in school, the new car, a house to live in, the extras that make it easier, for the most part those come through diligence if that is your focus in life. Then somewhat in what you pray for. For the most part though if you turn you heart towards the forgiveness you have received, and realize you potential in being a catalyst in sharing that forgiveness with others, or minister along side of or two other brothers & sisters in Christ or minister to those who are lost.

I truly believe when Jesus said,"you do not have because you do not ask, and you have not asked in the right heart of a matter if you have" you have to believe what he says. Take time to pray, be diligent, and ask God to move in the ways that only he can and even more as you are persistent to complete the task he has laid out before you.
just something to think about today.