Week 12: Rebellion

My body and mind have struck out against me this past two weeks.. Although greatfully I have made some great strides in my swiming (46 laps in an hour) Everything else has been falling apart.. One of my pedals has blown out, with limited income, I just have to wait to replace it.. Running is free right... My body and mind says sleep is too.. Ha ha...
I want to ride that's help work towards the runni g, but who knows adding the swim element might have actually help my running??? Ha ha wishful thinking..
Weather, and mental capabilities or lack there of over the past week have hampered me.. Prayerfully I can pull out of this anguish..
Crazy flip side!!!!
Spiritually alot of things have come togather.. Have started to pray about traveling to India and had great conversation with a new friend who is the brother of a old friend from college that is a pastor in India.. I had the blessing of talking to Jim via phone today for the first time.. Was awsome.. Had an encouraging word from a friend from church that playfully told me, "keep up the ironman" Thank you for that seriously I quirkily felt good.. No looking for more adds boys just the jest was recived well for sure..
So physical and mental slumps happen and is verry discouraging....
Thank you Father for the spiritual encouragement father.. The hope in continued service for you and along side of your people, forgive me for my stumbles as a man who is weak, is sinful, who is so easly dissuaded.. I am weak father... You ultimately are my drive and my focus of you has been insanely difficult as I battle my flesh Father.. Please Father allow the Holy spirit to continually over take me, wash over me, speak to me, guide me, push me.. Please father help me to be a better sin to you.. One who embraces the hard road ahead, instead of one who hesitates and turns away from it.. Please Father as lame as it sounds I can't even respound to your live verry if you don't help me respond to it.. Please Father help in the name of your son Jesus..... Amen

As always just letting you see I am human, I strugle emensly, and verry often proably get it more wrong then right.. But even with that said.. I can not give up, I can not let go, some how I have to move forward.. Some how.. Some how..
Sorry for grammar it's me, sorry for spelling.... That's me, and for weird words that don't... Ha ha ha that's me writing this from a cell phone...
Don't give up, keep moving forward... We gave to with the help of our God move through these circumstances and try to over come... Yesssss overcome
Sorry it's been so long, and it's so late.. See y'all soon
Scotty