I didn't just fall off the wagon, but i feel off the map too.. ha ha..
how far off the Map did i go... it's been since June 16th since i have not done anything.. A year ago today I had lost 40 lbs and ran my first triathlon...
A lot can happen in a year. I gained back that plus some. a total of 70 extra lbs in a year.. I joked that I swallowed a super model... Yeah 321 now... I can't really believe it ether.
Don't even know what to say, except for some how I feel my body has given up on me, even though I am still in it.
I am the midst of a quest personally, looking for desire & discipline listing for God's voice for his inspiration and praying through.... Can't even put that into words it's the start of a thought that never finishes it seems..
I am not searching for a blanket answer, I want a specific to me answer, one that speaks to who i am, what I should do, What strength of His to I use, and how much of mine do I mix into...
Yes I know..... I'm on a fence.... Or in a whole....
Physically just diminished trying to find away to start a fire. We all come to the points in our life I know, this just happens to be mine at this point in time. An I know that God will speak, just pray I am listing and don't miss what he has to say when he does.. Like this blog... Started it months ago, and finally just came back to it today.. I know it will come just don't know when yet. But. A change is coming.
I know something has to change, awaken, catch on fire, or something... Maybe next year I will get to write about the 70 lbs I lost..
I also changed my blog title from "fatman to ironman" to just "the great red giant" ...
Will I ever do an ironman some day, had you asked last year, I wold have told you, "half way there bring it on" this year I don't even know what to say about it anymore.
Things are going well, Family is Good Job is Good, just my body is in revolt.. Ha ha
Have a great day guys. Thanks for your friendships. And hope to catch up with all of you soon.
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